Today’s readings, remind me of my first experience of ‘God’s Love’, it also brings me to the awareness of how I fall in and out of that experience. After our baptismal encounter with God we are called to witness to the Word of God and to the Lord Jesus by how we live and conduct our lives.
When this fire is kindled deep within us, we thirst to be with the Lord and to serve Him. In doing so we work tirelessly, endure, suffer and still want to do more.
Do I carry the love, peace, humility and joy of the Lord? Or have I fallen into a routine of prayer and services that I do largely for my self-satisfaction and worth? Have I lost the Love of God in the process? It is time for me to repent, leave aside the ‘I know’, ‘I can’ attitudes and return to the Lord Jesus. It is then that the Lord can show me who I am in Christ. The Lord invites us to abide in Him, so that living waters may flow through us.
We are like the blind man in the Gospel. When the Lord is near, we begin to see our sins and weaknesses, it is then through the Spirit of the Lord that we cry out for mercy and forgiveness. God in His love forgives us and sets us free so we may see through His eyes. When life becomes comfortable, I tend to drift away from the undying thirst I otherwise have, to spend time with the Lord – mainly to get my needs met. When crisis hits I crawl back to the Lord.
After sometime I realized that this is not what the Lord wanted from me; He wants me to live in Him. The way I spend time in prayer changed. I came to the awareness of Him being my Father, Creator and Saviour.
His love and presence is constant and never fading. This is what leads me to the light. Even though I still fail to walk in the light 24×7, this awareness helps me to get back to the light as soon as I fall into darkness – It is a continuous journey.
Prayer: Abba Father, I believe that in your light I am gradually transformed into a new creation. Amen.
Source: On our Knees publication (November Edition)